Clowns are extremely frightening

I had a dream last night.

Feeling a bit scared...

Have you ever felt paranoid for no reason?
Guilty for something arbitrary?
Regret?

It's scary.

I don't want to sleep tonight. Even though I may be tired, my racing mind is what is keeping me awake. I don't want this anymore.

I made even more necklaces

Not quite, just the pendants because I need chains. I have no chains other than the ones I'm giving to my friends.

 

I have so many, maybe I should sell them. Who would buy them? Maybe no one. Maybe one person.
I know some people draw things for other people for money. And people ask my sister to make them things like needle felted rabbits. I've needle felted things too like a carrot and a mushroom and a happy pumpkin which my dog found and mutilated with her teeth and spit. Rehabilitation is ongoing. I also made a pony and a rabbit and a depressed potato. I seem to like making vegetables with personalities.

I made a lot of those birds nest ones. And I will make more because I still have beads sitting on the baking tray. They're a little hard to make because the wire keeps slipping when I wrap them around the beads, but if I intertwine the spirals, they'll stay in place. The first few ones look really ugly.

I'm also thinking about making a triforce pendant. As a gift or something.

I made necklaces!

Three necklaces, all three pendants were made by me out of clay. I also made a lot more beads, but I only bought three chains. It's actually a good way to take up time, making beads and charms and pendants.

This one is my favorite...

Today was the last day of chem, which means relaxing! Until Chinese immersion camp. Which will be hell. And then Mexico. Which will also be hell because of my family.
Whenever I take a trip with my mom, there is absolutely no time to relax. We're always changing rooms in the same frickin hotel in the same frickin city every single night. I don't remember a time when we stayed in the same hotel room for the entire duration of the trip or even more than two days. It's really annoying. And guess what my mom has planned for our sleeping quarters this time? A different hotel every night. Just causes even more stress. Not only that, she makes us go on tours that take forever and doesn't allow time to slow down a bit, so we're late for everything which made us miss our plane back home from Vegas last time and our eating schedules get messed up because we're spending to much time getting to the next hotel because she never bothers to stay in the same hotel. We always end up eating at some crappy restaurant with either overpriced mediocre food or overpriced crappy food. But missing my flight home.That was hell. I spent two hours at Sakura-con, which I had been planning to spend a whole day at, but NO. I just had to go to Vegas, where drunk people were walking around and yelling about how HUGE THEIR THINGY IS AND HOW THEY'RE GONNA DO EVERYONE. And also people handing out pictures of almost naked strippers to people walking along the street. And where people sit at slot machines for hours on end, not blinking, just smoking/drinking/doing both and staring blankly at the pretty lights.

That's frightening.

I think I'd rather go to Taiwan on my own than go on another trip with my mom.

Anyways, I was oddly hyper during chem today, probably because I think or hope I did okay when I just got a passing grade on my final and my overall grade which was actually the third lowest grade in the entire class but nor for sure because I might just be last now that everyone's taken the final.

I also went to Eliza's house with Sadie. Sadie's been having little control over her bladder lately... Not good.
At least she didn't urinate or defecate in Eliza's house.

My mom made me watch some Khan Academy videos and the summarize them in a paragraph in an email. Now she thinks I stole them off the internet because the words are "too sophisticated". WUT.

There might be some things

Chem was better today, I think, because I only spaced out once when we were taking notes. I had to do my lab alone because my partner was gone.That's fine, I had a lot of time to think. But I also screwed up my vinegar measurements. I'm so distracted by things, it sucks.

Miller also set off some... Something with three iodines... I can't quite remember the name. He dropped some on the floor and I set it off. Twice. But it wasn't as bad as when he threw it at the door or on Alex Chen's desk.

It's funny when someone keeps dropping and spilling things because it's not normal. What?

Sadie got a haircut and now she looks like a puppy. I wish I knew what she looked like when she was a puppy, but she might have been in a puppy mill when she was younger. Now all she does is look for food. So chubby...

I was playing with Julia's camera at school. Wee.

Soon, I will be in Chinese immersion camp, bored, bored, bored. The only person I will know there who isn't related to me is my mom's friend's son. And he looks like some sort of blind gorilla. He walks like one too. And a few weeks after that, I will be getting raped, kidnapped, and touched in Mexico. Yippee. I'd also be getting really tan, which I don't need at all.

And after that, I will go camping and also make a cake for Eliza's mom's wedding!

I've been to.. two and a half weddings. I never even went to my dad's wedding. Only my step-aunt(?) and her boyfriend were there. The half wedding was just the reception of my mom's friend's wedding but no kids were allowed. I hear they're divorced now.

My dad has installed some sort of driving program because I told him that I don't plan on driving any time soon. There's a giant steering wheel in front of me. It's actually quite fun to lean on.

Just tried to drive using the simulator... I really suck at driving. It's worse than stealing and driving my mom's car in my dreams.

The picture from Derby Days.

Also...

I drew this.

If I were to die, I'd die wearing yellow.

I don't even know why I'm posting anymore. I'm sure this is incredibly boring. You don't have to read. Or comment.

No one wants your eyes to bleed. There's no fun in that.

This post is even more pointless.

Chemistry was okay today.

No longer Derpy Days

I seem to be having trouble lately.

Derpy Days

Yesterday was Derby Days.
I spent most of the day with Eliza and sometime throughout the day, Divya joined us too.
Eliza and I started out by wandering throught the booths to see what they had. After we got bored, we walked around again and played some games people had at their booths, like the ones where you spin a wheel and get something.
We also saw several people, like Lila and Rita and Rachel and Jonathan and Benton and random families I knew. Most of the people didn't see me though.

Because Divya and Eliza were moving, we took a bunch of pictures together at this booth thing for free. ^.^
Their camera was really nice and the background was pretty too. So we decided to do it three times so all of us could have a picture of the three of us. However, the last one was taken with a crappy camera that made us all look... high. If I get it in time, I'll scan it, but be warned. It looks terrible.

We also got a pineapple sprayed on to our wrists. Divya didn't want the normal colors because she thought they looked weird on her skin, so we went with... "The pineapple of darkness and blood".

Also, for the fireworks, we sat at the top of a parking garage. But most of the time, we were trying to tell Alka where to go over the phone, and she couldn't hear us at all. It caused Divya to repeat random words repeatedly, like food or sidewalk.

This blog post is particularly boring... But my creativity is drained. Gahh.

Oh yeah, there was this one fundie guy shouting things like "LISTEN TO GOD AND GO TO HEAVEN. IF YOU DON'T THEN YOU'LL GO TO HELL FOREVERRRR"

That may or may not have been paraphrased.

Some other people started trolling him apparently too. I wanted to go up to him and hug him. Just to see his reaction. But he was really scary and seemed mean. Also, I didn't want him to ask if I believed in god because... yeah.

Bad days, good days, they're all really different.

Tuesday was weird.
I woke up half an hour after Chem class started. One of my only contacts ripped in half. I took a test, then had to take it again because I forgot to show work the first time. By the time I finished, Miller had already moved on past the important stuff.

TORTUUUUUUUURE

It's... Not socially accepted, cus people don't like pain.
I don't even know why I'm talking about this. Maybe because a certain friend suggested it.

Really bored!!

I've finished all my homework and now I have nothing to do except Reddit and chat and write blog posts.

I just love this picture, don't you?
Not really.

Stare in to those misshapen eyes.

She's going to watch you sleep at night now.

Boredom makes me do weird things, like paint my nails painfully bright colors and then immediately want to take them off. But showers are good. Especially on hot days.
I stood in front of Safeway for an hour and a half, But didn't do anything until we counted the money. And now I have a lot of strawberries. 

Strawberries are good. Blueberries are better.

My dog is so weird. And too long for her bed.

Pastaa

My mom decided to take me to her friend's house yesterday. And they made pasta. Like... Fresh pasta.
I don't know why, but the dough seemed a lot stiffer than it should be. But oh well ^.^

HI BJORN!!!!

HI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORNHI BJORN

HI ELENA!!!

HI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENAHI ELENA

... Interesting day

Today was started by going to chemistry, but my thinking abilities are reduced to those of a zombie if I get six hours of sleep. Which I did.
Ah well. It just made it a lot more confusing for me today, as I don't know if Mr. Miller actually went over many of things we ended up talking about... I'm sure I'm not the only one confused. Maybe I should stop spacing... 

Even more chemistry class- Yay

Chemistry can be fun. Actually it's really interesting. Except for the homework.

I've had three days of chemistry (When we should have had four already but they decided to skip a day cus of July 4th... Grr) and two tests already. The labs are quite fun too, so we don't have to take notes for five hours. 

Chem and other stuffs.

Normally I update this blog when I am bored.